She was left with only one choice... to throw herself from the roof of her home. There were many reasons, but she didn't care anymore. "Because I'm going to die anyway." Those were the magic words that solved all her problems. With her plump, overweight body, climbing from the second-floor window to the roof was a major task. Panting heavily, she somehow managed to reach the top, only to end up rolling onto her back and staring at the night view. She simply didn't want to move anymore. Hours had passed since then. She thought carefree thoughts, like how beautiful the stars spreading across the sky were, or that she should look at a picture of katsu curry on her phone one last time. She even glanced at the god in the sky, thinking she might cancel the jump if it started snowing. But suddenly, the girl threw herself into the deep darkness. If asked why at that exact moment, she could only answer that it just felt right. A girl's heart is always fickle, seeing the colors of the world change based on something as simple as the marbling on a steak. As her body fell, the sense of speed increased and her heartbeat grew louder. The moment she was sucked into the ground, images of naked men and women mating flashed through her mind. Then, scenes from a horrific "tag" project where dozens of middle-aged men chased an AV actress raced by. It was a digest of the masterpiece AVs she had always adored. "This is my life flashing before my eyes!?" she complained to God, and then the world went black. It felt like an instant. After a brief moment in the black world, her vision suddenly expanded. Before her was an unfamiliar white ceiling. Seeing the numerous tubes growing from her body lying in bed and the ominous medical equipment surrounding her, she realized she had barely survived. She felt as if God had told her, "Why not try living a little longer? This is your lucky time." After being discharged from the hospital, she successfully completed the diet she had failed at so many times before and became an AV actress. Hearing the circumstances of her debut, it makes sense that she is an unconventional actress. She isn't the typical sweet type who just opens her legs in front of a camera to become an idol. She is a rare case who entered the industry because she genuinely admired AV, even mentioning that she had watched Tamaya Label's works. Given that, it's understandable that the giant Pig Mask—the pinnacle of creepy men—misunderstood her as proposing to him. Yes, making her drink urine as a prank, and extreme play like raw creampies with "pig seed," were simply ways of confirming their love. She even suffered from hyperventilation during filming, but that was likely just nervousness in front of someone she admired. What will become of her life as an AV actress? Will she tumble down into becoming a criminal while talking about starting a fan club or entering the doujin market? Will she call herself an actor, entrepreneur, writer, and erotic streamer (and so on), basking in self-satisfaction while being pampered in a small community? Will she ultimately fail to make a living and become a strange creature who desperately shakes her breasts or masturbates while shouting fan names to squeeze money out of them? Or will she use AV as an advertisement for bars or sex work and devote herself to selling her body? That remains unknown. It's "not yet" known. For now, she is an artist. There is no "pretending" attached to that title. At least, that's what it seems now. "I hope the overtime since the day I prepared for death on that roof will be filled with happy memories I can be proud of," the girl thinks as she continues to walk through the AV industry today.
