do you remember the excitement of renting an adult video for the first time in your life? - the heart rate when you first stepped into the R18 corner - i, who was dissatisfied with her bland sexual acts, was trying to rent my first AV at a video store so that my history wouldn't be revealed. because i was trying to secretly enjoy acts that i couldn't do with her. the r-18 corner where older men than me are hanging around. i was nervous. i was also embarrassed. i even picked up a movie i didn't even want to watch, and in the meantime, i slipped in an adult video. the checkout is approaching. the cashier clerk who was guided to me was a lovely beautiful woman. (seriously, a woman...) while holding back unbearable embarrassment, when i placed the dvd on the counter, she looked into my eyes and smiled-