The moment I open the front door,
the musty smell of my stepfather,
it's really unbearable.
Every time the air mixed with sweat and bad breath clings to my skin,
I feel like I can't breathe.
I tremble just from the feeling of him approaching,
but because of the strange drug, the depths of my chest gradually heat up.
The damp breath near my ear seeps into the inside of my uniform,
and along with the nausea, somehow only my body reacts.
Even though I hate it.
Even though it's disgusting.
The places touched become sensitive on their own,
and the moment when my words of rejection turn into moans was the most regrettable.
"Come on, you're being obedient"
Even that whispering voice is smelly and unpleasant,
but my body, which is addicted to sex, continues to betray me.
...My stepfather's smell, penis,
and the medicine that makes me feel good,
I was gradually swallowed by them.